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The five of us, in complete innocence and bliss, would get together, strip nude and begin the motions of sex with one another. What intrigues me about this memory is: What is the thing that allowed us to know that the positions we were letting our bodies assume, their close relationship to one another, was the forefront of sex? When I try to determine this I draw a blank conclusion - I don't know.

I can choose to blame it on some primal scapegoat such as instinct, however I don't believe that humans posses any inherent knowledge at birth such as animals do. We posses the faculty of rational thought as our only instinctive attribute -- what we choose to discover with that is entirely described by our perceptions of reality - or what we experience. This is the only way, that I accept, for us to have formed the knowledge which allowed us to do what we were doing. We were performing according to knowledge that we had created. What process of conscious reasoning formed those abstractions are a mystery -- but anyway -- what's important here is that somehow, they were formed and shared by each of us.

We would pass away long hours, examining each others bodies intimately and with thorough interest. Testing this and that, experimenting, discovering each other. The concept of gender was a recognized attribute - the girls body was different from ours, but we weren't concerned with the idea of who was doing what to whom. To make this clear - the girls with the boys, the boys with the boys, the girls with the girls, all of us together - the combinations were not of importance. The essence of our actions were however, they allowed sensations of tremendous joy. We loved it.

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